Signs Of Depression At A Young Age
I remember thinking that the trees looked less colorful than a time before, and I think that’s when the depression started. I must have been six or seven.
Struggles With Career And Mental Health
Smart enough, the school wasn’t that much of a challenge, and I made it to the age of 19 when my life kind of went to sleep. I had finished an education as a graphic designer and found myself unable to put together a resume and get a job. Until 2009, I tried to survive on my art but was never able to do so.
The Journey To Recovery
Then, I went to university, trying to turn my life around in a massive effort. Changed places, left my boyfriend, and went to university every day. Again, smartness was enough when I had to think my way through the assignments, but I failed horribly when I tried to memorize things for the exams.
At the end of 2013, I failed my last exam, and in January, I was ready to leave this world out of desperation. “I would never be good enough to fit in this world,” was my thought. First, I wanted to cut myself, then I wanted to destroy my kitchen, and then I just got drunk and sat passively in front of my beloved PC.
I was addicted to my computer. Anyway, I called a hotline the next day and sought help. This followed about four years of therapy and emotional self-control training for six months. It helped a bit.
A Surprising Solution: The Keto Diet
In 2017, I got sick in August with some flu or so, and since I was sleeping all day anyway, I decided to give keto a try. On top of the illness, I felt awful from the keto flu. But at the same time, my energy levels went through the roof. The depression lifted within a week, and the cold went away a few days later.
From Keto To Carnivore: Finding Stability
On New Year’s Eve, my friends started basically screaming at me not to do it. In January, I went full carnivore, and my friends stopped responding to all my messages, which makes me sad, but I don’t want to kill myself over it anymore.
Now, half a year later, on a carnivore diet, my life is much more stable. I’ve put together a resume and started applying for jobs.
If you have something to do for an artist/ungraduated computer science student, let me know.
